Two Weeks

So I feel really strange again. I just lost one of my best and closest friends. Again. Why does this happen? I'm not talking to someone else again. Because of things that happened, emotions that came up. Stupid emotions. Why did they have to get addressed anyway? Oh right, because in this friendship, we were always honest with each other. No matter what.
Well look where honesty got us- two weeks of silence. And trying to figure out where to place these feelings. Mostly... I just thought you know, he was capable of being impervious to what every other male I seem to come in contact with does. We had rules, boundaries. And I didn't think they'd ever get crossed. I don't know why I thought that. But I did. And now... I just don't know where anything else stands.
Really, honestly, that rule was there, so it just didn't happen. I didn't go there, didn't even consider it. And now all the sudden... I'm having to. And I don't know what to think. Things can't continue the way there were, because of what was said. But I don't know which way to go- what to do.
I don't want to lose a friend, but I can see that it was unfair of us to think that we could be so good of friends, and somehow not have deeper feelings develop...? I know we can get over it and be friends still, it's happened before- it's just the getting there... that I'm not really sure how to do.
In my mind at this point and time I don't believe we'll ever be more than friends- and that's just how it is for me. But any kind of relationship takes more than just me, more than just one person. And so... where to from here? These next two weeks are going to hurt.