Recommitting

So today was a thoroughly tiring day, and it's not even over yet. But that's life. I'm happy. Right now. Earlier I could have shot something. And before that strangled something else. I don't know what it is, why it is, that this student of mine always has such a struggle. Ok, that's a lie, I do know why, I just feel sometimes that we are making absolutely no progress. That every inch I manage to claim, on a day to day basis, can be swept away in a matter of seconds- simply because I said the wrong thing, or reacted incorrectly, not the way he needed me to. Every second is a prayer to just stay sane. This is the life of a teacher, one who is dedicated. And I have to say, not proudly in the least, that I have not been a dedicated one lately. But the school year is now half over, and I am recommitting myself to being better. Giving these kids the teacher they deserve instead of just one who's there, but not really there.
It's well worth it, but hard, just like every other worthwhile thing in life. And I love it. I love it so much sometimes that I hate it. haha. Just because if I loved it any less, it'd be easier to give up. But I don't. I'm going to do this :D